The journey to discover myself

The past few days i have been thinking to myself that i really don't know who i am or what i want in life and it has been getting me frustrated and i decided a few days ago that i was going on a search for myself and i am learning new things about myself, like it took me sleeping with a few guys in dc to break out of my shell i just needed a little push. I also realized that i don't c my self cooking in a kitchen i can more see myself in a catering company or as an executive of a corporate catering company i mean love cook i just don't think a restaurant is the right place for me. I have had to deal with my mother and grandmothers about this because they think i am wasting my life because i am not sure what i want to do but i am still young i look at it i still have my whole life to decide if i would have went to a normal college i would only be a junior so i still wouldn't have a career yet so whats there big issue? I have also come to terms and enjoyment of not necessarily having a boyfriend i am enjoying my single life, I am not saying that i am not looking for a man don't get me wrong i am still in search of my Mr.perfect i know he is out there somewhere waiting for me. But now back to me i think that being one of the youngest and shyest in the group has taken a toll on me and it has changed me alot and forced me to stry away from what i normally do to try and fit in and i am not sure if that is good or not. Because i sometimes feel that when i am myself i am either looked down on or ridiculed (this may not be true but this is how i see it in my head) , and it not something i am used to. Can someone please tell me being myself do i fit in the group? Also someone tell me what they think i need to improve about myself and i want honesty but it is mean i would rather you email it to me blazintrackstar5@aim.com But i would liike everyone to stay tuned as i continue to discover myself in and out

OK here we go

Initially i was gonna blog about my trip to dc but i am not gonna post about it because it was brought to my attention that i was being whorish i admit that i broke out my shell a lil but a whore? I think not . i just dont really understand it .

Men with purse's part 2

Ok here we go was in the ville with the crew and saw it and i was told by fuzzy to hurry up and take a picture of it so i did and he is what i was talking bout. Masculine looking men that carry purses.