The journey to discover myself

The past few days i have been thinking to myself that i really don't know who i am or what i want in life and it has been getting me frustrated and i decided a few days ago that i was going on a search for myself and i am learning new things about myself, like it took me sleeping with a few guys in dc to break out of my shell i just needed a little push. I also realized that i don't c my self cooking in a kitchen i can more see myself in a catering company or as an executive of a corporate catering company i mean love cook i just don't think a restaurant is the right place for me. I have had to deal with my mother and grandmothers about this because they think i am wasting my life because i am not sure what i want to do but i am still young i look at it i still have my whole life to decide if i would have went to a normal college i would only be a junior so i still wouldn't have a career yet so whats there big issue? I have also come to terms and enjoyment of not necessarily having a boyfriend i am enjoying my single life, I am not saying that i am not looking for a man don't get me wrong i am still in search of my Mr.perfect i know he is out there somewhere waiting for me. But now back to me i think that being one of the youngest and shyest in the group has taken a toll on me and it has changed me alot and forced me to stry away from what i normally do to try and fit in and i am not sure if that is good or not. Because i sometimes feel that when i am myself i am either looked down on or ridiculed (this may not be true but this is how i see it in my head) , and it not something i am used to. Can someone please tell me being myself do i fit in the group? Also someone tell me what they think i need to improve about myself and i want honesty but it is mean i would rather you email it to me blazintrackstar5@aim.com But i would liike everyone to stay tuned as i continue to discover myself in and out

OK here we go

Initially i was gonna blog about my trip to dc but i am not gonna post about it because it was brought to my attention that i was being whorish i admit that i broke out my shell a lil but a whore? I think not . i just dont really understand it .

Men with purse's part 2

Ok here we go was in the ville with the crew and saw it and i was told by fuzzy to hurry up and take a picture of it so i did and he is what i was talking bout. Masculine looking men that carry purses.

I am pissed off

Ok everyone this is my second post for the day prolly more to come tonight. But i just want to get something off my chest i am mad as hell because people stop talking to me all of a sudden and then the moment i put up new pics those same bastard hit me up like wasgood how u been sexy like they aint been ignoring me , my messages, and my phone calls for like the past year or so and then act like nothing fucking happened i dont like that shit at all

NICKNAME

I am tired of my name i would really appreciate if you guys can help me pick out a nickname cuz reggie is no longer cutting it for me. It is just so boring to me so i would like something different. And i am really serious about this i want you guys to help me with one.

i am confused

I am using fake names for everything so just read along. OK so i was talking to my best friends Julissa on the phone and she told me that she was around Rahway and an old teammate of mines little brother was asking about me, mind you i don't ever talk to him i might have said 5-10 words to him in his existence. He started bringing me up and he just came out and asked her if i am gay. Now that is not what worries me . I would just like to know what is the point of all these little kids asking questions about me when they were like freshmen when i was graduating. So its not like they know me to ask about me like that. So my question is why am i the talk of their senior class if i wasn't even the talk of my senior class almost 3 years ago?

Bad luck

i think i just have bad luck y do i always meet guys that disappoint me they lie about there weight now i dont have a problem with big bois i would just appreciate it if you let me know and not say that your inshape when i ask. Then the guys get upset when i am shocked and am lost for words . And then i find the ones that have a smart ass mouth and i know i have one but mine is enough i would rather have someone who isnt as smart as me cuz i dont like people that have clashing personalities dont like confrontation. WHAT IS MY PROBLEM?